If I win I
praise You, If I lose
I praise You
Living alone is a hard time for me. I
have been living just by myself since I was twelve years. I still remember how
hard it was and how every day, every week I always look the calendar to see
whether if I have a holiday to come back home.
Every evening was the
very lonely for me. I missed my parents so much, if I can back in time I think I
will never take this chance. I think I won’t go away from my parents. I cried every evening then I try to make myself
fell better by singing a song, speaking alone and praying, I really miss my
parents Lord.
Almost eleven years has passed away, so
much thing happen to me, happiness and sorrow. I face it alone. I am not a kind
of woman that telling the other about my life even to my parents. If everything
get hard for me I will just face it and try to make it better, and if I can’t
handle it I just let it go.
If I can live my life I think it is a
grace from God. In every sorrow I can survive it is because God cares my life
so much. Now I am waiting for something in my life. I really put my trust in
God and sure that I will get it.
But as a human there
is a question in my heart, how if I don’t
get it? If I get it I will thankful to God, but if I don’t get it, whether I can
thankful to God?
Of course I want in
every condition I can praise Lord in my life. I have learning about praising
Him unconditionally but that is my human being.
