A notes for 21th birthday....

So much days that i have pass out, so much happiness and sadness. If i looking for the day that i have pass out, ,looking for every moment in my life, i will say, “ how amazing i am..” it’s not because of the thing that i have reaching for, NO, of course NOT. I’m a student in university, semester 6, i do nothing, i make nothing and i give nothing. Something that i have a high regard for is how God keep working on me, help me to walk, to live and pass everything and sometimes make me cowardly, make me disappointed not only to my self but also to every people around me, even my family.

I amazed how i see my life in good condition, if i come back for one moment in past day, i was never think about this life, this condition, i was never think that my life so good right now.

 Yes, in my childhood, God promised me that He will give all the best for me,give me every best day.

And His promise is present.

I do grateful, really thankful, eventhoug there always something leave behind in my mind just like slide, sometimes make me  so shy, sometimes fall down laughing , sometimes depressing, upset and be painful, nevertheless i  comprehend i already overstep, ran.. you previously go beyond, all is done, it’s over sweetheart...

Thanks God,if You  let me to meet some people, some of them leave impression,funny,damage, unacceptable , however that feeling , i always say thanks.

I am preparing my self now, i don’t want to be an ordinary in the future. I want to reach something more than i can imagine. In the future i will never cry, i will never give up, i will never hurt my self and other, i will be happy for everything in my life. I give in to God, all my plan, i will lay down in His arms, He will make everything beautiful in His time. His planning about me is amazing and i will let him keep working in my self.

21 years, it’s along time, so long, i do express my thankful, i’m here, in this world, in Father’s world,  , thanks for giving me a beautiful name NASRANI, i really happy when i found that my name was taking from one place in Israel, Nazareth, the place that Jesus come from. I really appreciate my parents give me this name.  It’s my pleasure to be a sister for my brothers. So much fun to be a friend for my dearest friends. Thanks to all people, they always with me in my happines and sadness, in my laugh and tears, and  certainly my biggest thankful always to my Savior , my Redeemer, Lord of the lord, King of the king, my dearest Father, my Thou, My Thee, my true friendship, i can’t honour You even i use every beautiful words, i think that is not enough, must more than that, i will say must more than that.

But eventhough i can’t express my be passionate about You, You know me more than i my self, being Your daughter is my pleasure, my loveliness. It’s amazing to know You. It’s an amazing grace, a wonderful moment to have You in my life.

Thanks my Thee, i always imagine You always hold my hand, make Your hand upon my head, and say , “ don’t worry about anything, i will never leave you. I still keep working on you.”, “ are you tired? Just put down all your painful, your problem, just leave them behind, just let Me do it for you, put them in me, never give up dear.. “, “ never give up..”,” i do love you so much more than you can thinking of ..”

And i know,  from above, from heaven he will say  “ happy birthday my child,i always be with you forever...”

Thanks for mom and dad, who love me so much, thanks for everything, wish your day is full of blessing.

Happy birthday Nasrani Lumban Gaol, hope in your way you still keep your hand to God. Wish you never give up to this life, just wait for God’s time.

Yeremia 29 : 11